❤вaвy мιc❤

lesson :(

2010-12-10T13:03:00.000+08:00

I'd learnt my lesson.. :(

I was not as tough as I thought..

I thought I can accept the fact but I couldn't..

I'd cried everyday, I ate :

~porridge + tears

~cheesecake + tears

~ice-cream + tears

~& many more..

bii ,

Although its just a very short period , you'd bring me happiness alot..

You shows me that I don't have to be pretty to be loved..

Although we always quarrel , my love to you will never change..

I know that you will not want to see me sad..

I promised you that I will continue my life happily..

No one can replace your position in my heart..

I love you.

I miss you.

loves Rayson Ong Xun Zheng forever.

2010-10-02T12:11:00.000+08:00

about 1 week + didn't blog d..

due to my trial exam.. ;(

my trial result sucks to the max.. T.T

I couldn't concentrate at all..

I told myself that I must put my sadness aside for my trial exam..

but I couldn't..

I miss him so much

bii❤

2010-09-21T18:55:00.000+08:00

i miss my bii ;(

♥♥ ♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥

♥

i really do ;(

2010-09-19T19:03:00.002+08:00

out of sudden , I wanted to share the content of the letter I received long ago that make me melt

Dear Michelle, my baby.

Hey there baby. Who am I? Rayson Ong , your bie here. Sorry for my ugly writing. Kinda rush while writing this.

Nothing special why I wrote this. No reason. Just suddenly feel like giving you surprise. And, because I wanna express my love to you.

I'm a busy guy, baby. Sorry cause most of time I've neglected you. And sorry for not replying message sometimes. Sorry I always suddenly disappear, for whole day.

I wanna express my love to you, baby. I love you so much. And I guessed I couldn't describe my love to you using words. I love you more than I can say baby. Trust me!

& baby, I wanna apologized to you because we never meet before.. I always busy. Baby, you might think I'm finding excuses. But trust me, I'm not. There are several times I wanna find you & hug you tight. Its either I can't make it or you were busy. True? sigh.

But no worries baby, we can meet each other in not more than 24 hours time. I can hold you tight, hug you & kiss you. Baby, I won't ever let you go. That time, I can tell you I love you face to face.. <3

Baby, listen --->

"Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You oughta know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of

I never ask for more than you love :)"

Know what song is this? That's my words to you.

Baby, have a great night.

Goodnight & I love you.

See you tomorrow.

Love you always.

W/ lots of love,

Rayson

dedicated to bii~

2010-09-17T01:21:00.002+08:00

bii~

I will love you forever

*I swear*

no one can replace your place in my heart

♥bii

2010-09-16T23:01:00.002+08:00

RIP

bii,

I will not make you worry~

I will stay strong~

I know it's not easy for me to be okie~

Your letter & the necklace will accompany me~

2010-09-14T17:41:00.000+08:00

why??

why you??

why am I so stupid & doesn't know how to appreciate you??

♥

2010-09-14T13:13:00.000+08:00

Date: 10th September 2010

Day: Friday

Time: 11.46pm

realized that your Facebook is activated back. *happy*

went to your profile. read your wall post. *tears rolling down*

~Officially announced that Rayson Ong passed away because of accident.~

please tell me it's not true. I rather you lied to test/make me worried.

sms-ed your number to ask what's happening.

Date: 11th September 2010

Day: Saturday

Time: 9.19pm

received a Facebook message.

~Rayson asked me to tell you that his love for you never dies, he still loves you like last time. He regretted that you both never meet up. And he asked you don't be sad. He wish to see you happy with some other guy. Take care. Ray loves you :)~

Date: 12th September 2010

Day: Sunday

Event: Grandpa's 49th day

whole nite I couldn't sleep.

no mood.

during the prayers, I eventually was holding an unburn joss stick & stand there like a dumbo.

my soul'd been gone.

2010-09-11T22:41:00.001+08:00

Its been some time since I last updated my blog.

If I was given a chance, I ~~seriously~~ don't want to update during this school holidays due to STPM trial exam coming soon.

BUT

I need somewhere to express my feelings.

please tell me that its not true.

I beg you.

please.

2010-09-04T00:04:00.002+08:00

i love being loved cos loveable

2010-08-27T14:21:00.000+08:00

upper abdomen very pain

my gastric pain is back to 'visit'??

~i wonder~

or something worse??

gastric ulcer?? *touch wood*

2010-08-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

I've come to realize that :

before I go to sleep at night I think of you

right now I am thinking of you

today I will think of you more than yesterday

tonight I will think of you before i sleep

tomorrow I will think of you more than today

I have a crush on you

all I really need is you

all I really want is you

I miss you

I likes you

I love you

2010-08-25T19:37:00.002+08:00

Everyday i think of you. Everyday you cross my mind. Everyday i see something that reminds me of you. Everyday im missing you. Everyday i wish you were mine. Everyday i wonder what could of been. Everyday i think of why you did this. & everyday im getting stronger. Everyday im moving on.
But everyday i'll always miss you.

2010-08-24T20:46:00.004+08:00

Each time I miss you,
a star falls down from the sky.
So,
if you looked up at the sky
and
found it dark with no stars,
it is all your fault.
You made me miss you too much!!

2010-08-24T19:28:00.000+08:00

dear Chan Shao Peng,

~may u rest in peace~

although i do not know you , hope u have a better life at the other side

(thru thestar online)

2010-08-23T21:02:00.001+08:00

I think about you constantly,

whether it's with my mind or my heart.

2010-08-23T20:56:00.001+08:00

I miss you when something really good happens,

because you're the one I want to share it with.

I miss you when something is troubling me,

because you're the only one who understands me so well.

I miss you when I laugh and cry,

because I know that you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear.

I miss you all the time.

2010-08-23T20:48:00.003+08:00

I miss you most when I'm sad.

I miss you when I'm lonely.

But most of all,

I miss you when I'm happy.

2010-08-23T20:47:00.003+08:00

I miss you more today than yesterday,

but

not as much as tomorrow

2010-08-23T20:38:00.002+08:00

I think of you,

as i think of taking breathe

2010-08-23T20:33:00.001+08:00

Thinking of you is easy

I do it every day.

Missing you is the heartache,

that never goes away.

2010-08-23T20:22:00.001+08:00

I try to talk to you,

but I don't know what to say.

I am afraid you don't want me to say anything.

So I don't.

But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.

And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you.

And how I love you despite my broken heart.

And how I need you in my life.

And especially how much I want you.

But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside.

Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too...

but I'll never know

2010-08-23T18:26:00.003+08:00

I wish

I could see through your eyes

I would know what you like to see.

I wish

I knew your wishes,

I could give you everything you want.

I wish

I dreamed the same dreams you do,

and

together we could make them come true.

I wish

I knew what makes you happy,

I could make you the happiest person in the whole world.

And lastly,

I wish

I were a cell in your blood,

I would be sure I was somewhere in your heart.

2010-08-23T18:21:00.001+08:00

So,

here I am,

all by myself,

thinking of you-

no one else

There's a feeling inside

and

as hard as I try,

it just won't go away

2010-08-23T18:16:00.000+08:00

i am 'awake' ??

am i??

hope so

don't put hope on things that are impossible

although miracles may happen

but

it's probability is 0.00001<1

don't dream!!

2010-08-23T17:39:00.000+08:00

today i am neutral ;)

trying really hard not to think bout it d

but i couldn't

>.<

❤bendan me❤

2010-08-22T22:34:00.000+08:00

it's time for me to go to dreamland

hope I can forget everything sad (at least nearly everything)

wish me luck ;)

2010-08-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

mood status : down ;(

recently I am always sad

after one problem settled, there comes another

full of challenges

luckily I'd a few friends that cheer me up whenever I am down

especially fasya & jiek

~thanxie lotsa~

2010-08-22T21:57:00.003+08:00

such a failure ;(

2010-08-22T21:41:00.001+08:00

~I HATE MYSELF~

~YES I DO~

2010-08-22T21:31:00.000+08:00

1st: YOU are my best friend
2nd: I love you as a friend
3rd: YOU are hurting my feelings
4th: I do not know what you are thinking
5th: if YOU happy ignoring me
6th: I am okay with it
7th: YOU just have to tell me

8th: I am very disappointed of you

9th: why must YOU treat me so

10th: I can feel the 'knifes' stabbing my heart

11th: can YOU please tell me what is happening

12th: I need some clues

13th: no matter what YOU are still my best friend
14th: that is all I wanted to say

2010-08-22T10:54:00.001+08:00

i couldn't sleep well this few days

*sobss sobss*

this is causing me to look like a panda

(not the cute one)

and having headache nearly everyday

why'd happened to you , MICHELLE LEE XUE MAY ??

2010-08-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

太煩惱

一樣的化妝一樣的頭髮

大家通通太像多無聊啊

剪雜誌不如自己想學誰不如自己闖

每個人總會有一件事要比別人強

沒有那麼漂亮就更用心化妝

當身材沒有辦法想努力微笑放光芒

我煩惱太被動並不好

煩惱太衝動也不好

煩惱自信在動搖

煩惱煩惱鑽進了牛角

我煩惱太聰明並不好

煩惱太愚蠢更不好

煩惱誰都不明了

煩惱煩惱太煩惱的苦惱

別讓昨天變圍牆要拿今天當翅膀

可以失戀不能失去了對幸福的渴望

暗戀最好撐把傘小雨大雪都會下

愛就像高跟鞋越美的越容易拐一下

難免受傷重要的是不要留下疤

沒有陰影才不害怕為了夢想痛著成長

煩惱太被動並不好

煩惱太聰明並不好

2010-08-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

愛上你

什麼都不要懂只想繼續做夢

害怕醒來以後握不住你的手

是誰太不成熟沒體諒彼此感受

我不停尋找著理由解釋分手

心好空像沒溫度的氣球

我的靈魂困在回憶中動也不能動

愛上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂

可是懷念竟比失去還要更難受

噢~愛讓我想起你的時候淚禁不住滑落

可惜你永遠都不會懂

什麼都不要懂只想繼續做夢

害怕醒來以後握不住你的手

如果同一秒鐘你也想起了我

心只要能微微顫抖就已足夠

愛上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂

可是懷念竟比失去還要更難受

噢~愛讓我想起你的時候淚禁不住滑落

或許我永遠都看不透

愛上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂

傷心快樂在回憶中反覆的交錯

噢~愛讓我想起你的時候淚禁不住滑落

可惜你永遠都不會懂

放心我還會好好的過

2010-08-19T22:14:00.001+08:00

I am not gonna fake a smile

nor gonna shed a tear
I am just
NEUTRAL

dedicated to my maternal grandfather

2010-07-26T20:58:00.061+08:00

when we were young , my grandpa treated us the best
he left all the best things for us
he often bring us to playground to watch others play
watch others role-playing , watch others play hide & seek
he often tell us to study hard
don't be so embarassing like ~~'someone'~~ when we grow up
at that time , we don't understand what he mean
grandpa , what are you actually saying??
after we grew up , then only we understand grandpa's words
we will always put his words in our hearts
when we thought of the past , it always left us with unforgettable memories
as time passes , inside our hearts always thinks of him
grandpa , where are you now??
we are calling you , did you hear us??
our hard work & success , did you see it??
we are calling you , did you know??
grandpa , are you living well now??
is there anyone taking care of you??
hope that in next life, we can still be doted by you
we will always be your grandchildren
and still can call u 'grandpa'

knock knock does anyone even care??

2010-07-26T18:25:00.001+08:00

had a ~~wonderful~~ ~~great~~ kinda stress-free nite on saturday

but i am not happy , cos he wasn't here =(

my right hand got injured .. "did i hear you asking something??"

YUP , I AM RIGHT-HANDED *typing using only left hand*

the feeling sucks.. i hate my writting today , it look like it's written by a kindergarden kid =.=

i reallyyyyyyyy hope that i get to meet him NOW~

but i guess..

it's gonna be a dream/wish that doesn't come true ;(

meaningful ~

2010-07-25T16:14:00.001+08:00

At the start I believed that love would be very easy

So without permission I put you in the depth of my heart

It was until afterwards, when one day you and her walked together

It was then I realized that love is just not only sincerity

I've touched heaven and earth, why is it I am unable to make you touched?

Even though I am well aware that there is no ending, yet I still refuse to give up

I've touched heaven and earth, why is it I am unable to make you touched?

Always believed that love would have miracles, just to deceive myself

Believed that I wouldn't continue to think of you

Maintaining my distance so as not to be stung

Even if I have already forgotten myself

Yet I still want to know about your news

♥

2010-07-16T18:39:00.001+08:00

THE RULES OF 15:

*llist any 15 names you think of.

* Do not list any repeats; simply go to the next name in the list.

* Then, answer the 37 questions below, pertaining to the 15 people.

* When you finish, tag all 15 people in the list, so the cycle can continue.

* If you've been tagged, copy and paste this information into a new note, and follow the directions above.

------

1.LayLing

2.Rayson♥

3.Eric

4.Gary

5.Henry

6.KeeLeong

7.Shen

8.Heusen

9.Joseph

10.Fasya

11.Andy

12.Andrew

13.Bryan

14.Paul

15.Cavan

------

1. How did you meet 1?

school ♥

2. What would you do if you'd never met 4?

i will still be the blur mich ♥

3. Would you date 12?

LOL. i not gonna date my bro ♥

4. Have you ever seen 7?

yea, during form 5 at USM ♥

5. Would 3 and 12 make a good couple ?

haha, 2 piggy being together? *laugh non-stop* ♥

6. Do you like 2?

of course ♥♥♥

7. Do you think 11 is attractive?

haha, he has lotsa fans ♥

8. When was the last time you talked to 14?

long long ago ♥

9. Would you ever date 7?

idk.. he has too many fans d ♥

10. Where does 15 live?

somewhere near my hse ♥

11. What is the best thing about 8?

he is nice ♥

12. What would you like to tell 13 right now?

hii ?? ♥

13. What is the best thing about 5?

he is a cutie hamster ♥

14. Have you ever kissed 12?

NO. ♥

15. What's the best memory you have with 6?

hmm.. the time we took pics together?? ♥

16. Who is 9's best friend?

idk ♥

17. What was your first impression of 10?

she's funny & friendly ♥

18. Is 15 your best friend?

he is like my bro ♥

19. Have you seen 8 in the last month?

nope ♥

20. When was the last time you saw 11?

never meet ♥

21. Have you been to 13's house?

nope ♥

22. When's the next time you'll see 4?

dont know ♥

23. Are you really close to 3?

dont know ♥

24. Would you give 12 a hug?

i will but he will not want it ♥

25. Do you know a secret about 5?

nope ♥

26. Describe the relationship between 4 and 10?

they dont know each other ♥

27. What's your friendship like with 7?

good ♥

28. Have you ever danced with 10?

not yet ?? ♥

29. How do you know 6?

through friends ♥

30. Does 2 have a bf/gf?

yea ♥

31. Have you ever wanted to smack 9 in the face?

nope ♥

32. Has 13 met your mother?

nope ♥

33. Have you traveled anywhere with 15?

nope ♥

34. If you gave 3 $100, what would they spend it on?

idk ♥

35. What's your best memory of 8?

msn ♥

36. What is the last thing you did with number 5?

talk ♥

37. When did u meet 11?

never meet ♥

2010-07-10T14:27:00.000+08:00

If I were to die today , I will like to thank:

Ray - for brighten up my life

Thanks lotsa , dear ❤ . You really brighten up my life. The letter accompany me 24/7. I never get bored reading the letter everyday. -xoxo-

Ling - for being my bestie since form 4

Thanks , Ling. You are a very wonderful bestie. I will never forget how you prank 'him' in phone for hurting me. =)

Henry - for being such a wonderful friend

Thanks , Henry. You are a very nice & kind person that I never regret knowing. You are one cutie hamster too. xP

Eric - for being my piggy friend

Thanks , Piggy. Although we never met, but you are one of my bestie. I will never forget how we eventually know each other. XD

Victor gor - for teaching me chemistry

Thanks , gor. I wonder did you got 'kek ki' everytime teaching me chemistry when i was in form 5?? sure got hor.. since I bendan ge. x)

Gary gor - for teaching me some theory

Thanks , devil. You eventually teach me and guide me to be an optimistic person. Its kinda funny when I called you - devil gor & you called me little evil. =]

Cavan - for cheering me up everytime I am sad

Thanks , kor. Although we only knew each other not too long , you are really nice to me. I must be pretty annoying , huh?? always complain this , complain that. =X

Joseph dii dii - for accompanying me most of the time

Thanks , didi. You always manage to make me laugh no matter what. You are a very cute lil boy. ^^

2010-07-09T16:09:00.007+08:00

everything back to ~~normal d~~ at least almost normal

i'd get over it d ;)

no point of me getting sad & emo over the past

most important now :

-dear♥-

-family♥-

-studies♥-

-friends♥-

i can't play a fool with my studies anymore like what i did during SPM

my future is on my hand =)

super sad ;(

2010-07-08T13:48:00.001+08:00

I got my MUET result today

I got band only *wth*

~~.horrible.terrible.~~

registered at school just now to retake it

another RM60 flies away

but

what to do?

if I don't retake , then I have to say bye-bye to local U (that i wanted)

bad service

2010-07-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

i went to have Bak Kut Teh just now with my family

there's lotsa ppl , guess i have to wait for seat & etc.

finally got the seat d, mum went to order

after waited for ~~so long~~ some time, finally our food are served ^^

BUT

the 'drink guy' is such a donkey

he ignored us & doesn't bother to ask what drinks we wanna order

the great part : we are the only one not being served

ishxxx

*angry*

wrong timing

2010-07-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

i'd over-reacted tonite..

i did answer you , kay??

i admit i am being unreasonable..

but i learnt from you , being a person who always 'explode' gain more attention from dy..

so i decided to be the antagonist instead of being calmer type..

anyway sorry for being a 'donkey' just now..

i was angry cos no one bother & realise that i am having fever..

not even one person ask me , am i okay??

maybe you're right

2010-06-30T22:37:00.000+08:00

suddenly i received a few messages telling me & reminding me not to put too much of hope ~~in this~~

i don't know what i should do

to : YOU

i'd the trust but at least prove to everyone that i did not made the wrong decision

maybe you are right , i'd lost hope

anyway , thanx for the messages whether its right or wrong

bang by a stupiak guy ;(

2010-06-30T17:20:00.001+08:00

i went to tesco yesterday nite with my mum & bro to 'refill' the house.. XD

quite alot of people were there but its okie since i ~~kinda~~ got used to it [everytime i went , it is like that]

BUT

this time i just hate it

it all started :

i was standing somewhere & checking my phone [ i couldn't remember where =.= ]

out of sudden , a stupiak idiotic guy bang me

i didn't even blocked his way

it was very painful

[he is tall & huge in size]

I HATE YOU , STUPIAK IDIOTIC GUY!!

2010-06-25T19:23:00.001+08:00

i can't sleep yesterday !!

T.T

what's wrong with me ??

can someone help me ??

be with me when i need someone ??

give me warmie hug so that i feel that i've been loved??

(preferable YOU)

2010-06-18T18:46:00.003+08:00

recently i am sooooooo addicted to this song. love it for being meaningful & touching.

this is the translation of the song. hope i am right. ;]

原諒我(please forgive me)

after we separated, please don't still remember

the promises sealed by our kisses

your eternity doesn't belong to me anymore

silently lowered my head, at that time

many words were stuck at my throat

your smiles, your happiness not me

loves too much , think too much

i can feel that that he is more suitable than me

i let go of love , i pretended to be cold

said break up before you

please forgive me

forgive me for being immature

not loving you was just an excuse

better let you leave me

please forgive me

wanted you all by myself selfishly

just like me bare the loneliness

exchange a better life for you

after we separated, please don't still remember

the promises sealed by our kisses

your eternity doesn't belong to me anymore

silently lowered my head, at that time

many words were stuck at my throat

your smiles, your happiness not me

loves too much , think too much

i can feel that that he is more suitable than me

i let go of love , i pretended to be cold

said break up before you

please forgive me

forgive me for being immature

not loving you was just an excuse

better let you leave me

please forgive me

wanted you all by myself selfishly

just like me bare the loneliness

exchange a better life for you

loved , hated , cried , even laughed

kissed your fragility

actually i am weaker compared to anyone

forgive me , have to pretend loved wrongly

don't let time turn back , i scare words couldn't be said again

forgive me , didn't explain much of heartache

no other request, forget me completely

love actually have willingness

i am sad

only i understand

[my chinese's not good so there might be error in translating this song]

2010-06-17T12:33:00.001+08:00

had my graduation nite dinner that day (tue-15/6/2010)..

this year's was different compared to 2008's cos this year i went to studio for make up & hair. ^^ (2008- my hair was short & simple make up)

was a wonderful nite but it will be supreme wonderful if you were there with me.

2010-06-15T15:16:00.002+08:00

tonite is my prom.

~weeee...~

2010-06-12T14:05:00.002+08:00

it been some time since i last update my blog.

alots of things happened recently.

.: worried bout ah kong's (grandfather) health.

.: some misunderstanding.

.: my close fren avoiding me.

.: some love prob.

something ~~weird~~ wrong with me nowadays.

.: get angry easily.

.: lost appetite.

.: cry out of sudden.

.: scare to be alone.

.: ~~scare~~ avoid going playground area.

2010-05-28T22:55:00.004+08:00

alot of things happened recently.

~~its really torturing~~

*mental torture*

i was so down , i ended up crying everyday. until one day, i was too down until i couldn't cry anymore.*no more tears*

i felt like as though i lost my soul for that period of time.

yet i choose to pretend nothing happen.

in sch, i m ~~still~~trying really hard to stay like the michelle lee xue may that everyone remembered as a happy-go-lucky girl.

at home, i pretend again.

but..

i am way-too-tired. days by days people around me started to realise that i am down. i started to be a stranger to myself and people around me. i doesn't talk much recently.

after ~~struggling for~~ some time, i finally gain back my emotions ;)

thanks to my friends that help me go through the ~~torturing~~moment

2010-05-19T17:17:00.003+08:00

i feel very guilty now.

i never know that i have such a big influence on u..

i admit that i got freaking jealous when i read the comments u wrote at those girl's profile.. u look like u rather chat with them instead of me.. [obviously they're prettier than me]

i thought u don't love me anymore.. because the way u replied me really hurts my heart deeply..

i thought by not sms-ing u so much , i will not miss u that much.. i don't deserve u.. u can find a way much better girl compared to me..

i never know the one hurting the other half is me..

i m really very sorry..

please don't hurt yourself..

i beg u..

something.somewhere.somehow

2010-05-12T21:22:00.003+08:00

everyone is asking the same question.

do i ~~really~~ look sad?

example

friend: "why u look so sad?"

me: "really? i'm not. i'm just confused and thinking bout something"

friend: "oo. what were thinking that make u confused"

me: "nothing"

other example

friend: "are you okay , mich?"

me: "hmm. yea. i'm just sleepy."

friend: "u look sad. if anything, u can just tell me, kay?"

me: "i'm not sad. thanks anyway"

other example

friend: "mich, u lose weight. what happen? why are u sad?"

me: "nothing happen. i'm not sad. & i did not lose weight. i'm still the round tomato"

out of sudden , i received lots of messages.

EVERYONE.i'm okay.thanks for being so caring.

2010-05-11T18:21:00.002+08:00

i feel pretty confused now~~

need direction critically~~

itx kinda torturing this feeling~~

i wish i know what to do now~~

2010-05-08T10:26:00.006+08:00

Dedicated to my bii : RAYSON ONG XUN ZHENG

i am Addicted to you~

you are my Bie~

i Can't live without you~

you are my Darling~

you are Everything~

Forever & always~

Glad to be your dear~

my Happiness is you~

you are most Important~

Just me & you~

a Kiss from you makes the world turns~

i LOVE you~

i Miss you~

i Need you~

want to be your One & Only~

life's Perfect with you around~

[Q- i couldn't find or think of any]

couldn't Resist your love~

wanted to be with you every Single moment~

Thinking of you day & night~

you are like the Universe to me~

your Voice makes me melt~

i Want you~

2010-05-03T12:17:00.002+08:00

thank gawd MUET's over d..

very dissapointed.. i shud hav did much more better.. =[

during task A [individual presentation] ,i actually paused awhile & continue it wif : "sorry for the inconvenience"

funny tho.. xP

i just hope that i m at the safe side..

2010-04-26T19:22:00.005+08:00

a sweet starting.. =)

2010-04-24T18:12:00.003+08:00

~~too~~ kinda many things happen recently.. happy & sad..

sad:

1)~~i realised that~~ friends can just leave u anytime.. even u treasure them lotx..

2)stress *upper six' life can be really torturing*

3)~~a guy that claim that he fall for me~~ someone ~~thinks~~ kind of agree that i hav attitude problem

happy:

get to know ~~someone~~ him

glitter-graphics.com

to R

u r so sweet..

but..

there's doubt in me..

are u really sure u like an ugly duckling like me??

i m nt pretty..

i m ~~fat~~ ~~chubby~~ fat & chubby..

2010-04-22T18:20:00.003+08:00

u've been alwix there for me whenever i need u..

i really appreciate that..

but i cudnt feel the ~~what i want~~ secure that i want or need..

honestly speaking, i started to "accept" u d.. itx like a wonderful dream..

BUT

now i've woke up.. i realised that i cudnt get it..

2010-03-26T15:36:00.006+08:00

another random post .. =)

i lovey dovey my hair..

LOL

i m insane..

~lalalala

see the outstanding colour.. ??

2010-03-20T12:22:00.005+08:00

woke up this morning & realise that what i want is just yr forgiveness.. BB

mayb what 'piggie' said was right.. :what hav past, let it be..

u are indeed a ~~good~~ great friend.. i might annoy u cox everytime sure trouble u ,

~complain this complain that~
thanxie 'piggie' ..

2010-03-19T21:45:00.004+08:00

fall in love with u again..

i know i hurt u deeply in year 2008..
i'm really sorry..
i know that no matter what i do now couldn't change the fact nor for u to forgive me..
i m a fool..
i was too ~~stubborn~~childish back then..
u walk into my life when i was down..

thanxie & sorry, BB
[althou i m ~~definately~~ not yr BB anymore, u are always mine]

❤вaвy мιc❤

lesson :(

dedicated to bii~

♥bii

♥

~Officially announced that Rayson Ong passed away because of accident.~

1st: YOU are my best friend2nd: I love you as a friend3rd: YOU are hurting my feelings4th: I do not know what you are thinking5th: if YOU happy ignoring me 6th: I am okay with it7th: YOU just have to tell me

8th: I am very disappointed of you

9th: why must YOU treat me so

10th: I can feel the 'knifes' stabbing my heart

11th: can YOU please tell me what is happening

12th: I need some clues

13th: no matter what YOU are still my best friend14th: that is all I wanted to say

dedicated to my maternal grandfather

*knock knock* does anyone even care??

meaningful ~

♥

super sad ;(

bad service

wrong timing

maybe you're right

bang by a stupiak guy ;(

something.somewhere.somehow

1st: YOU are my best friend
2nd: I love you as a friend
3rd: YOU are hurting my feelings
4th: I do not know what you are thinking
5th: if YOU happy ignoring me
6th: I am okay with it
7th: YOU just have to tell me

13th: no matter what YOU are still my best friend
14th: that is all I wanted to say

knock knock does anyone even care??